The "Odd Bihari"
From "The Gospel of Swami
RAMDAS,
written by Pujya Swami SATCHIDANANDA
In "The Gospel of Swami Ramdas"
written by Pujya Swami Satchidananda, lilke Yogiji shishya of
Swami Ramdas, some episodes about Yogiji can be found.
We strongly advise the readers to read
those lines, written in 1953, in the light of the own Words of
Yogiji about those days, as in the light of Sadhu RANGARAJAN's
article written in 2001 : "Shraddhanjali
à mon Dikshsa Guru".
In 1952 a friend from Bihar had came to Anandashram
and stayed three weeks. He was a school teacher on long leave.
He had a beard. Though Papa had first agreed to his staying in
ashram for a month, he had to be asked to leave earlier as his
behaviour was not satisfactory. He was highly emotional. One
evening, during bhajan, he lay down on his back shouting 'Mataji,
Mataji'. Papa knew that it was nothing but a mere pretence and,
when the bhajan was over, gave him sound advice. He was so much
ashamed that he could not raise his head. Next morning Papa advised
him to leave the ashram. It was reported later that he behaved
like a madman at the railway station. At Erode he was knocked
down by a railway engine and was taken by a Gujarati devotee
to his house for treatment. He was later reported to have gone
back to his house. He stayed there a few months and all found
him to be out of his senses ; he suddenly left the place without
intimation to his people.
As soon as Papa alighted from the plane at Bhavnagar on the 3rd,
he saw the Bihari in the crowd which had come to receive him.
He was in dirty clothes and had a queer look. Papa recognised
him immediately. It was later said that only recently he had
came to Bhavnagar and was staying at the house of a devotee.
He had told them that he was asked by Mataji to wander about.
It appeared, during his short stay there he made himself a nuisance.
He created unpleasantness in Ramdas ashram when Sai Baba's devotees
were performing bhajan. He shouted why they should worship Sai
Baba as Papa was all in all and they should worship none else.
He had to be sent away by force from the ashram. Seeing bis condition
Papa advised him to go to Girnar and do sadhana.
When the morning bhajan was going on in the ashram, the Bihari
started talking. Among various other things, he said, 'Papa
is my Krishna, Rama and Shiva. Mataji is my Radha, Sita and Parvathi.
I am a saguna upasaka and they are my gods. I had been to Anandashram
where Papa scolded me and asked me to get away. In doing so,
he has dishonoured his own devotee. Now Papa asks me to go to
Girnar. Why should I go to Girnar leaving my ishta devata here
? I am not a nirguna upasaka and have nothing to do with Dattatreya'.
Mataji, who was present, heard the talk and was wondering how
Papa could tolerate such things. Seing Mataji, the Bihari got
up and came near her to do namaskar.
Mataji : "Why do you talk like one gone off one's head
?"
Papa asked Sumatilal Kamdar to send him to Girnar with a blanket
as it was rather cold there."
December 15, 1953
The Bihari was in the bhajan-hall. Papa, when
informed of this, went to the bhajan-hall. The Bihari came and
prostrated.
Papa : "Ramdas has to tell you something.
You must have your hair cut, have a clean shave, put on clean
clothes and then come here."
Bihari : "May I do that after the
bhajan ?"
Papa (patting his back) : "Yes, you
do that after darshan."
His face lit up with joy as Papa patted him.
Immediately after bhajan, arrangements were made to take him
to go to the barber. He came back at 12 o'clock with close cropped
hair, shaven face, white dhoti and chadder.
Papa : "Ah, that is good, it looks
as if you have taken rebirth. It is clean outside. Do not create
any more trouble here. Be quiet. Do not snatch away the Ramnam
books from people who are writing Ramnam."
Papa came in and, referring to the Bihari,
said : "Now you cannot say he is dirty."
December 18.- 2 P.M.
As a number of letters were to be answered
Papa was busy dictating. The Bihari in his usual unkempt way
came in, prostrated and sat at his feet.
Bihari : "Papa, what shall I do ?
Tell me."
Papa : "Ramdas has told you what you
are to do. You do not listen to what he says but go on asking
what you should do."
Bihari . "I try to obey you. I went
to Junagad, but some other power forced me back to you. I cannot
stay away from you. I do not know what is pulling me back to
you. I have no control over myself."
Papa - "It is only the ego residing within you that makes
you dance like this. You want everything done your own way. You
have to get away from Ramdas. There is no place for you near
him. You will not gain anything thereby. It is found by experience
that those who associate always with us do not improve. They
start finding fault with us and that becomes the cause of their
regression. Even before starting to stay with Ramdas, you have
begun to find faults. You asked the other day why Ramdas went
to Rajkot and Bombay for attending marriage functions. You considered
it a folly on the part of Ramdas and remarked he should not have
done so. Is it with this attitude that you are going to stay
with Ramdas ? Give up that idea and go to Girnar. If you do not
go to Girnar now, it is not going to leave you. Girnar will pull
you. Believe it, this is true. If you lead an ill-regulated life
like this, Ramdas can tell you, you will go off your head."
He could not say anything. Tears were flowing down his cheeks
and he looked quite restless. Then slowly he said :
"No, Papa, I cannot leave you and go away."
He again prostrated and left the room, weeping. Papa continued
dictating letters till 3 o'clock. Some devotees were waiting
in the hall to meet Papa.
4-45 p.m. Papa had been thinking of having a walk every evening.
After starting on the tour, it was not possible due to too many
programmes. Papa managed to get an hour free every evening while
at Anantapur, but it was not possible elsewhere. After coming
there, the programmes were adjusted in such a way that Papa was
free for at least two hours every evening. Sumatilai promised
to keep his car ready for Papa to go out at 4-45 p.m. or so to
some lonely place and there walk for about half an hour and return.
Papa, Mataji, S., Mukund Pal and Goghawala went in the car, got
down at the bund of the Gogha tank, and walked on the bund road
for some time. They returned to the ashram at 6 p.m.
8 p.m. Papa had his dinner consisting of two boiled vegetables
and six ounces of milk. He was sitting in his room and before
him were Mrs. Gunavantrai Kamdar, Sumatilai and his wife, Mataji
and a few others. Amongst many topics the talk turned Io the
Bihari.
Mrs. Kamdar : "Papa, the Bihari is roaming about the
whole day in the hot sun. He is restless and runs like a mad
man. As he is not permitted to come in, he wanders outside."
Mataji : "Looking at his condition, Papa feels sorry
for him. He has great love for Papa. If he obeys Papa's instructions,
he will soon come up."
Papa - "Really, Ramdas feels sorry
for him. True, he has great love for Ramdas and Mataji. But all
others are less than straw to him. He does not care for them
and fails out with them when they do anything that he does not
like. He is not mad. He understands everything. The only thing
is that he is bent upon his own way, which is harmful both to
himself and others. He is not uneducated. He is a B.A., B.T.,
and was a teacher in some High School. When he came to us at
Anandashram he was all right for the first ten or fifteen days.
Later we found that his behaviour was not congenial to ashram
life and we asked him to leave. He did so only after giving a
good deal of trouble. When we came here, he was at the airport
to receive us !"
(Bhavnagar) 9-30 to 10 p.m.
As usual, members of Kamdar's family were
sitting around Papa. Some were massaging Papa's legs, applying
Vaseline.
Mrs. Kamdar : "Papa, that Bihari sadhu
beat our gateman. He wanted to force himself in and, when prevented
by the gateman, gave him some blows and ran away."
Papa laughed awhile on hearing the new development,
but made no comment. |