The "Odd Bihari"

From "The Gospel of Swami RAMDAS,
written by Pujya Swami SATCHIDANANDA

 

In "The Gospel of Swami Ramdas" written by Pujya Swami Satchidananda, lilke Yogiji shishya of Swami Ramdas, some episodes about Yogiji can be found.

We strongly advise the readers to read those lines, written in 1953, in the light of the own Words of Yogiji about those days, as in the light of Sadhu RANGARAJAN's article written in 2001 : "Shraddhanjali à mon Dikshsa Guru".

 

In 1952 a friend from Bihar had came to Anandashram and stayed three weeks. He was a school teacher on long leave. He had a beard. Though Papa had first agreed to his staying in ashram for a month, he had to be asked to leave earlier as his behaviour was not satisfactory. He was highly emotional. One evening, during bhajan, he lay down on his back shouting 'Mataji, Mataji'. Papa knew that it was nothing but a mere pretence and, when the bhajan was over, gave him sound advice. He was so much ashamed that he could not raise his head. Next morning Papa advised him to leave the ashram. It was reported later that he behaved like a madman at the railway station. At Erode he was knocked down by a railway engine and was taken by a Gujarati devotee to his house for treatment. He was later reported to have gone back to his house. He stayed there a few months and all found him to be out of his senses ; he suddenly left the place without intimation to his people.

As soon as Papa alighted from the plane at Bhavnagar on the 3rd, he saw the Bihari in the crowd which had come to receive him. He was in dirty clothes and had a queer look. Papa recognised him immediately. It was later said that only recently he had came to Bhavnagar and was staying at the house of a devotee. He had told them that he was asked by Mataji to wander about. It appeared, during his short stay there he made himself a nuisance. He created unpleasantness in Ramdas ashram when Sai Baba's devotees were performing bhajan. He shouted why they should worship Sai Baba as Papa was all in all and they should worship none else. He had to be sent away by force from the ashram. Seeing bis condition Papa advised him to go to Girnar and do sadhana.

When the morning bhajan was going on in the ashram, the Bihari started talking. Among various other things, he said, 'Papa is my Krishna, Rama and Shiva. Mataji is my Radha, Sita and Parvathi. I am a saguna upasaka and they are my gods. I had been to Anandashram where Papa scolded me and asked me to get away. In doing so, he has dishonoured his own devotee. Now Papa asks me to go to Girnar. Why should I go to Girnar leaving my ishta devata here ? I am not a nirguna upasaka and have nothing to do with Dattatreya'.
Mataji, who was present, heard the talk and was wondering how Papa could tolerate such things. Seing Mataji, the Bihari got up and came near her to do namaskar.

Mataji : "Why do you talk like one gone off one's head ?"

Papa asked Sumatilal Kamdar to send him to Girnar with a blanket as it was rather cold there."

 

December 15, 1953

The Bihari was in the bhajan-hall. Papa, when informed of this, went to the bhajan-hall. The Bihari came and prostrated.

Papa : "Ramdas has to tell you something. You must have your hair cut, have a clean shave, put on clean clothes and then come here."

Bihari : "May I do that after the bhajan ?"

Papa (patting his back) : "Yes, you do that after darshan."

His face lit up with joy as Papa patted him. Immediately after bhajan, arrangements were made to take him to go to the barber. He came back at 12 o'clock with close cropped hair, shaven face, white dhoti and chadder.

Papa : "Ah, that is good, it looks as if you have taken rebirth. It is clean outside. Do not create any more trouble here. Be quiet. Do not snatch away the Ramnam books from people who are writing Ramnam."

Papa came in and, referring to the Bihari, said : "Now you cannot say he is dirty."

 

December 18.- 2 P.M.

As a number of letters were to be answered Papa was busy dictating. The Bihari in his usual unkempt way came in, prostrated and sat at his feet.

Bihari : "Papa, what shall I do ? Tell me."

Papa : "Ramdas has told you what you are to do. You do not listen to what he says but go on asking what you should do."

Bihari . "I try to obey you. I went to Junagad, but some other power forced me back to you. I cannot stay away from you. I do not know what is pulling me back to you. I have no control over myself."

Papa - "It is only the ego residing within you that makes you dance like this. You want everything done your own way. You have to get away from Ramdas. There is no place for you near him. You will not gain anything thereby. It is found by experience that those who associate always with us do not improve. They start finding fault with us and that becomes the cause of their regression. Even before starting to stay with Ramdas, you have begun to find faults. You asked the other day why Ramdas went to Rajkot and Bombay for attending marriage functions. You considered it a folly on the part of Ramdas and remarked he should not have done so. Is it with this attitude that you are going to stay with Ramdas ? Give up that idea and go to Girnar. If you do not go to Girnar now, it is not going to leave you. Girnar will pull you. Believe it, this is true. If you lead an ill-regulated life like this, Ramdas can tell you, you will go off your head."

He could not say anything. Tears were flowing down his cheeks and he looked quite restless. Then slowly he said :

"No, Papa, I cannot leave you and go away."

He again prostrated and left the room, weeping. Papa continued dictating letters till 3 o'clock. Some devotees were waiting in the hall to meet Papa.

4-45 p.m. Papa had been thinking of having a walk every evening. After starting on the tour, it was not possible due to too many programmes. Papa managed to get an hour free every evening while at Anantapur, but it was not possible elsewhere. After coming there, the programmes were adjusted in such a way that Papa was free for at least two hours every evening. Sumatilai promised to keep his car ready for Papa to go out at 4-45 p.m. or so to some lonely place and there walk for about half an hour and return. Papa, Mataji, S., Mukund Pal and Goghawala went in the car, got down at the bund of the Gogha tank, and walked on the bund road for some time. They returned to the ashram at 6 p.m.
8 p.m. Papa had his dinner consisting of two boiled vegetables and six ounces of milk. He was sitting in his room and before him were Mrs. Gunavantrai Kamdar, Sumatilai and his wife, Mataji and a few others. Amongst many topics the talk turned Io the Bihari.

Mrs. Kamdar : "Papa, the Bihari is roaming about the whole day in the hot sun. He is restless and runs like a mad man. As he is not permitted to come in, he wanders outside."

Mataji : "Looking at his condition, Papa feels sorry for him. He has great love for Papa. If he obeys Papa's instructions, he will soon come up."

Papa - "Really, Ramdas feels sorry for him. True, he has great love for Ramdas and Mataji. But all others are less than straw to him. He does not care for them and fails out with them when they do anything that he does not like. He is not mad. He understands everything. The only thing is that he is bent upon his own way, which is harmful both to himself and others. He is not uneducated. He is a B.A., B.T., and was a teacher in some High School. When he came to us at Anandashram he was all right for the first ten or fifteen days. Later we found that his behaviour was not congenial to ashram life and we asked him to leave. He did so only after giving a good deal of trouble. When we came here, he was at the airport to receive us !"


(Bhavnagar) 9-30 to 10 p.m.

As usual, members of Kamdar's family were sitting around Papa. Some were massaging Papa's legs, applying Vaseline.

Mrs. Kamdar : "Papa, that Bihari sadhu beat our gateman. He wanted to force himself in and, when prevented by the gateman, gave him some blows and ran away."

Papa laughed awhile on hearing the new development, but made no comment.